And she didn't know that would happen, or she never would've taken the shot in the first place.
But you did know, and couldn't do anything about it. So in the end it's not just that you had to die, but that you had to do it at the hands of a friend who never would've hurt you if she'd known, but who couldn't have known even though you had the power to tell her, because things were preordained to end up that way and trying to spare her from it would've gotten her killed for the trouble right along with you.
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But you did know, and couldn't do anything about it. So in the end it's not just that you had to die, but that you had to do it at the hands of a friend who never would've hurt you if she'd known, but who couldn't have known even though you had the power to tell her, because things were preordained to end up that way and trying to spare her from it would've gotten her killed for the trouble right along with you.